Lots have been going on in our life since my last blog. I've left Humana & went back into the golf business. We have cut down our orchard (with the exception of 1 apple tree & the *delicious* pear apple tree) because let's face it; I'm not Susie Homemaker and I don't freeze, can or make anything with the fruit that we were growing. We added Princess Coco (a black & white border collie) to our family because we are coo coo for Coco Pups. *Corny joke my Hubs likes to tell. :) We are getting ready to do extreme home makeover on our kitchen. (Not a process I am excited about, but it is *MUCH* needed!) And we are desperately wanting a child.
Wanting children was not something I was wanting to blog about, but it has consumed our life over the last 2.5 years so it seems it is blog worthy. We were at first diagnosed with "unexpained infertility" then my Dr. found massive amounts of "Endometreosis" which is what my diagnosis is at this time. We've tried everything in the book to have a child, but it just doesn't seem to be in God's timing for our lives just yet.
God's timing is something I have dealt with through this whole infertility ordeal. I am used to life as we know it, you want something bad enough you get it, with no expenses spared. Am I right? Surely I am not the only person who does whatever they have to do to get what they want??
When I struggle with God's timing, I often find myself asking him question after question. I constantly find myself saying things like, "I don’t understand, God. I have prayed and prayed, and nothing has changed. I believe my prayers are within the scope of Your will . . . I’m not asking for anything amiss. What’s wrong, God?"
Then I think of Zacharias and Elizabeth, the father and mother of John the Baptist and how they prayed for a child. They didn’t have John until very late in life. In fact, they had reached the age at which having children was highly improbable, if not impossible: “I am an old man, and my wife is advanced in years” (Luke 1: 18). Then, one day, while Zacharias was in the Temple, the angel Gabriel came to him and said, “Zacharias, your prayer has been heard.”
Do you suppose Zacharias had been praying recently for a child? Do you think he was still entreating the Lord for a son? Maybe just yesterday in his prayers he had said, “O, Lord! Elizabeth and I are so very lonely. How we yearn to have a child. Please, Lord, bless our union and send us a baby. . . .”
I don’t think so. I really don’t think he had prayed that way for a long, long time. He had given up all hope that he would ever hear the pitter patter of little feet around the house, for he was an “old man” and his wife was “advanced in years.”
I imagine Zacharias saying, “Uh . . . what prayer is it that you have reference to, Gabriel?”
“The one you prayed years ago, Zacharias. Remember? You asked God for a son. You see, the fullness of time has now come, and the Lord is going to give you the desire of your heart — a son, Zacharias, a son!”
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In the fullness of time. When is that, Lord? I don’t really have any way of knowing, do I? Zacharias and Elizabeth had some lonely years . . . until the fullness of time when everything was ready . . . and then You fulfilled their prayer.
God has an “appointed time” when every minute detail will be finished for you and for me. When that times comes, the prayer will be answered.
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I recently saw this poem and thought it was fitting to include it in this blog...
It may not be tomorrow, and yet it may
It will happen on Gods set day.
The burden will be lifted, The lost one will be won
The trial will be over, The long task will be done.
We cannot know the hour, but we will trust Him as we wait,f
or He knows just what must come to pass, He will not be a moment late!
So praise Him in the trial, give thanks for the task
rejoice and be obedient, He knows what you have asked.
It may not be tomorrow, and yet it may
It will happen on God’s set day.
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